The Eureka Moment when I became Free Grace
I have always been sceptical of the Calvinist view of election, but until 2004, I was favourably disposed to the doctrine of Perserverance and would have put myself on the Lordship side of the fence. When I read Wayne Grudem at the age of 18, I was shocked to find out some thought that repetance was not a part of receiving eternal life.
As I have done plenty of open air preaching there were occasional difficulties in my mind about exactly what one needed to tell lost sinners to do. At university, I suggested once or twice to a friend that maybe justification by faith alone was not that important, after all, if one needed to do works anyway, what was the big deal?
I read Dave Hunt's book 'What Love is This?' While I agreed with Hunt's rejection of uncondtional election, I thought the book was quite weak in a lot of places. I was especially puzzled by the chapter on assurance. I could not understand why Hunt was arguing that Calvinists had a problem of assurance.
When I started blogging, I enjoyed many discussions on Rose's wonderful blog. I cam across Antonion who was advocating 'Free Grace.' I thought this seemed rather suspect. Absolutely free? Free to do what, live a sinful lifestyle?
Everything changed when discussing something on a post on Rose~'s Reasonings. I mentioned that I did not feel that I really loved our Lord. A very kind Calvinist blogger expressed great concern at this statement. I am sure he meant well, but the way I understood him, he was questioning whether I was truly regenerate.
At that moment, on seeing my salvation brought into question, scales fell from my eyes. Suddenly I understood why Calvinists had a problem with assurance. If a true believer will perservere, then a sign that I was not persevering sufficently might be a sign that I was not a true believer. But I believed. Ah, but that might be a false faith. But if I might have a false faith when I believed my faith was real, how could anyone be certain that they were saved?
I realised that however odd Antonio and Zane Hodges might seem, I needed to pay attention to what they had written. They clearly had a big point...
10 Comments:
Bro. Matthew,
Do you believe you were saved when you became "free grace" or before? Thank you for sharing your story with us. God Bless you!
By David Wyatt, at Saturday, July 14, 2007 4:17:00 PM
I remember all of that so well.
how could anyone be certain that they were saved?
This is a big problem.
You are a blessing, Matthew. :~)
By Rose~, at Saturday, July 14, 2007 7:10:00 PM
David, before. I trusted in Christ for eternal life and had no doubts about my redemption in Him.
Rose~, thanks.
By Matthew Celestine, at Sunday, July 15, 2007 12:48:00 AM
Hey Matthew,
It's been a long strange trip. I appreciate you, and am very happy to call you brother.
Eureka, baby!
Antonio
By Antonio, at Sunday, July 15, 2007 4:11:00 PM
That's what I thought, but I was just curious. I hear some folk say that they were saved only when they became free gracers. Thanks & God Bless!
By David Wyatt, at Sunday, July 15, 2007 6:34:00 PM
David, well if a person never had assurance until they became Free Grace, then that would be the case.
But a lot of Calvinists have far more assurance than their theology should allow.
God Bless
Matthew
By Matthew Celestine, at Monday, July 16, 2007 12:31:00 AM
Antonio, thanks.
By Matthew Celestine, at Monday, July 16, 2007 12:31:00 AM
QUESTION? How can I finish reading all of "The Eureka Moment when I became Free Grace" by Matthew? The ending isn't there? Is there something I need to click on to in order to read all of the message? Thank you for any help.
By Anonymous, at Monday, July 16, 2007 1:43:00 PM
Bro. Matthew,
Ain't it the truth!
Anonymous,
I believe Bro. matthew just finished his post in the middle of a thought for effect. Of course, he will have to answer for himself, but I believe that is the case. The post is complete as it stands. God Bless.
By David Wyatt, at Monday, July 16, 2007 6:42:00 PM
Anon, for the rest of the story, read some of the articles at Antonio's blog 'Free Grace Theology'.
By Matthew Celestine, at Tuesday, July 17, 2007 12:48:00 AM
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